I am unsure why I find myself up at these late hours. I have done so since I was a child. I stay awake even if I am tired like now. I think it might have to do with me having "adult ADD" and having "my motor running". In fact it seems that my later in life diagnosis is disturbingly accurate. How is it that it took so long for me and well others to realize I have ADD? This is because I do have the hyperactivity associated with those with ADHD. As a child I constantly day dreamed, wandered off, was messy, my book bag was always disorderly, I was always late, my mouth ran a mile a minute, my mind raced, I talked non-stop (as my Mom always said that once I opened my mouth I never stopped), and I still have many of these (well all of) these traits and behaviorism's. I do not belief ADD is a disorder, nor is it a limitation (although it can be), I think there are challenges involved living in a farmer society while I am clearly a hunter. The farmers won (for now), they beat the hunters and gatherers of the world. They through their farming, not moving around and planning were able to raise large armies, displace hunter and gatherer populations and develop advanced weapons and technology. It is the farmers of the world that are destroying it. If people lived like me and other hunters the world would be in harmony with us. It is clear that farming is unnatural and destructive. The hunters are many creative types and flexible thinkers. I have come to realize that these farmer people are somewhat robotic and perhaps possess a more reptilian brain. I have nothing to base the reptilian brain theory since I just made it up more or less but I think there may be some truth to this. I will leave it to neuroscientist to prove me right!
In some ways robotic reptile people fascinate me and I have at times admired their robot/reptile ways. They seem to have an internal clock that tells them where to go and they are good at following orders as sheep might. I find this to be interesting and again there is a passivity in the brain that allows them to behave this way. On the other hand coming to the realization that my so called creativity, the way I think, my well known candor are considered to be ADD symptoms I find to be disconcerting. Still regardless of the difficulties I have coping at times in this robot world I would choose my monkey brain over being a reptile any day of the week! In fact I have come to pity linear thinkers somewhat as it's clear their lives and thoughts are not as interesting as those with spiral thinking abilities and the ability to freely associate. There are advantages in linear thinking for those who desire to "fit in", "get ahead", and "achieve". These linear thinking people (no offense if any are reading this) are good at being programmed and following their programming. This makes them good managers, accountants, financial geeks, computer nerds, soulless bankers, and other jobs that require consistent programming and rule bound minds. The unknown truth about ADD is that it's not that we have a deficit in attention the issue at hand is that we pay attention to too much. Imagine if you can hundreds of thoughts coming at the same time at any given second. This would drive a robot brain mad. Perhaps one analogy would be that people with ADD are Macs and Robot brain people are PCs. The PC finds it hard to do too much at once and will crash. The mac is used for creative purposes and can withstand multi-tasking better. I am so sorry that those out there who own macs but have pc brains must find this out. You thought you were a mac but you so obviously are not! No worries you are still Bill Gates child and that counts for something right! Now if we could get those viruses, and spyware out of your head! Ha!
Now that I know what I am or rather how I think or do not think I find it easier to adopt to the reptilian/farmer/robot way. It's ok to be a robot, farmer reptile! DO not worry! You are right at home in your kingdom! You have temporary dominion over the rest of us. You have destroyed all the animals, plants, and hunter-gathers that have gotten in your way. You should be proud! You are a powerful virus and have spread virulently. You have manipulated the world to suit your reptile brains and have destroyed every thing in your path to do so! You know who you are. Many of you seem to admire creative thinkers, just as creative thinkers admire robot brains. I am not one that organizing, filing, cleaning, being methodical comes easily. I must try hard to do these things. I see that many of you have nothing to say sometimes. I do not envy that but its a useful thing to learn. There is value in being a good listener. We tend to talk or be alone. When I do not feel like speaking I go to be alone. I am alone most of the time but when I am social, I am especially social.
I am writing this tongue and cheek. Its way too late and past 5am. I am waiting on my camera to finish uploading the latest photos I took. Its taken much longer than I planned and my eyes are heavy. I am trying to learn to be more efficient with my time so I can advance among the robots. I am not one of them but I need to pass for one at times. I need to behave like these clock heads. I need to use my time wisely and produce. I have the potential to make large sums of money and I am finally desiring to do so. It was never of importance to me and I always had too much going on to focus on myself and my ambitions (which are abundant). I see people around me thinking small and I am not that person. Please work on your gold watch and pension, its good for you! It's your destiny! It is not mine. We can see how well society has served the peons and other slaves who served it. It's the economy stupid! it's angry! You have failed to please it. You bad, bad, bad cog! Now, what are you doing reading this? Get back to work and make someone some money! Now! Make yourself some cash too so you can keep your cog like self nice and lubricated. We can't have you breaking down now!
Ok I need to wash up as my photos are uploaded...its 5:19 am and I need to be up ten thirty. Please keep being who you are and I will continue being who I am...
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