A New Era?

(first draft with no proof reading)

It seems we have reached a new era and I am wondering if it is more of the same? I would like to remain optimistic and rejoice after eight years of George Walker Bush. I think it's good to be in a post Bush era so that people can begin to take their own collective responsibility for what is occurring in our nation and in the world at large. I am speaking of consumerism, waste, living for yesterday and a general outward behavior of apathy we are all too used to. It would be nice to think people are waking up but I think the hypnotist are just making us think we are chickens instead of sheep or in this case donkeys instead of elephants. I care for neither yet I will take this current government over the last one in any scenario.

One of the reasons I have been blogging less and less is because of the startling revelation that people from time to time actually read this blog. I honestly never thought people (even people I knew) would read this blog as I do not promote it, who would care or have time to read it?, it's not kept up to date and well again there are far more interesting things, blogs to read on the Internet (or one hopes). If you are reading this and not in a weird stalky way than you are welcome gentle reader.

It's 5am now and I am awake. I was not awake before but popped awake because I had fallen asleep with the television on and the lights. I had not brushed my teeth either and all these factors caused me to arise. I rose and naturally I ended up watching tv (about the Galapagos Islands) and this caused me to want to look at somethings on the internet. This was all foolish for I should have went back to sleep but this is me. All night I have been going to the computer and wanting to begin a script and so I down loaded a script writing software program to use. As often occurs to me at moments of great planned inspiration I get to the moment of writing and my mind goes blank. This is what occurred earlier and yet even now I can see what I wanted to write as if its just beyond the keyboard on a paper I can only see in certain light. This is why dictation always appealed to me and maybe I will look into some of that naturally speaking software as I belief it's come a long way since I last tried it.

For me making movies, like blogging, or taking photos sometimes seems pointless but I guess one can take that attitude about near anything if one wanted to be a insufferable existentialist, in short a bore. I like books, reading, movies, and such but there is so much drivel out there and why should my product be any different? The non-drivel is so over rejoiced in, so over played, so outplayed, it has become drivel. One example I will give is surfing channels on digital cable. You have hundreds of channels and nothing to watch. The stuff worth watching you most likely have seen already and the rest is stuff you tolerate or cannot stand. There are exceptions to the rule and thank G-d for DVR. TV to me is one of those things I think of swearing off (like meat, staying up late, ice cream, beer) and yet I end up consuming it. Like the other things I mentioned I cannot find compelling enough reasons not to watch tv. Foe one thing people that do not watch TV annoy me. Would they cease to annoy me if I joined them or would I only be an annoying person like them? What's especially annoying is how proud non-tv watchers are and how they think that by not having tv they have achieved something. The truth behind this is that most TV watchers were once never leave the home tv addicts so they cannot even stand to have a tv in the house with out being riveted to it. This is just one point but the other is that some how that by not getting information one would be smarter? I learned a lot from Bugs Bunny as a child. I owe Bugs Bunny and Loony tunes the credit for teaching me how to deal with life, and with my family. I agree it is horrifying to be on a bus in Europe and to have American sing the Brady Bunch theme song but do you want to be the person who does not know the song (assuming you are American). Yes, Maybe I would doubt the value of knowing the "honey comb" theme song and I now realize how dated I am when I sing these jingles and people younger do not know them and when they do it is sometimes a uniting, collective experience and one I am not sure I would so eagerly trade for 10 -20-30 more IQ points for honestly I don't use the IQ I have so why do I need more? (to figure out how to use my IQ better perhaps???)

I love this stream of consciousness blogging. Its embarrassing to me when I think of readership for than I might think I am tiresome. I find I already go through life feeling I talk too much and so it would nice to find one haven I can rant freely with no guilt. I feel fortunate for being born a loquacious person but honestly I find it hard to stop talking. This can be alienating at times and it's a life long struggle of mine. What is not well known to others is how quiet I am when I am alone. I do not mind being quiet and I can even ignore people if asked to but I would prefer to be alone than ignore people. I am not cat like in that I want to be near people and quiet. I am more dog like in that either I want to be social or I want to go off and do my own thing. I am not opposed to being around people and being quiet at the same time it just does not come naturally to me. I love this hour. I love the hour when people are sleeping and the streets finally quiet down. I find it peaceful. It feels good to be alone with ones thought and so alone that one feels as if they are in the room with their thoughts and you are like hey thoughts what are you thinking? The thoughts look back and and say nothing much as they often do reply and you think well that's kind of odd that a thought has nothing much to think about and it seems clear that that does make sense after all. I am not sure what is so important to be thinking about at times. I try often to solve the world's problems and rack my brain thinking of how to feed people, heal the planet and make perpetual energy. This is so strenuous that often I need to go drink an ice coffee. Man all that earth helping is tiring. It's some bizarre, absurd joke to teach us gluttonous, over indulgent, spoiled Americans how to become globally responsible suddenly and not even give us a little shove. The Euros at least they have a head start of not growing up with napkins, good toilet paper and paper towels. They barely just got coffee to go so they do not mind living with out. We Americans have grown used to wasting everything, ourselves included and those around us. I am not sure what I mean by that yet but it feels right to me. It happens so quick that we went from a frugal society (my grandparents depression era) to a wasteful one (my parents baby boomer era) to now. What are we now? It seems we are wanting to change or is it just a big scam to sell us "green friendly" consumer crap? We went from www. on everything to green green green. What was it before I cannot even recall? As I write this I hear the wizz, wirl, buzz of several machines. There is a fan, an AC, an air purifier all buzzing and humming. I actually like this since it creates white noise which distracts me from the racing taxis on the avenues below, the sirens, the garbage trucks and the hydraulic sounds of the buses below. I do not feel this is the most green friendly approach but this is what it takes for me to have good air and sound quality in my room at this time.

Back to the new era concept. I feel we are in a new era and if not "we" than I will speak for myself. My life changed greatly when my Mother died. My Mother was my best friend and we were extremely close. It's sad naturally and the time since has been a roller coaster as everyone who had already experienced it told me it would. I just ride with it. I am glad she lived to see Obama elected, she was a true Democrat, a true civil rights advocate and a lover of justice. I hope Obama lives up to some of his expectations since he has carte blanche for now. I fear he won't if only because the powers that be won't let him. Perhaps he can find a balance between assuaging the rich and easing the poor's burden? We can have rich people and poor but why so poor and so rich? Can McCain get along with 4 houses instead of 9 and maybe somewhere other people would have their own homes? That's not too much to ask for. I myself should work harder on doing more for others. I find it too easy to live my life from one gut full to the next with out thinking of where this food came from and what costs were extracted to bring me my food. I could go on about the long showers, the clean clothing, the heated rooms, the AC, the abundance of food I have had, and so on. All of these luxuries are deprived to others. I also go through a lot of trash although I recycle but I know that I use paper towels and other wasteful products. I need to work on this! If I become like Ed Begley Junior I will be annoying like those people with out TVs! I want to save the planet I really do!

We are in a new era if only because I believe so...